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Okay so after my blogging hiatus (which was longer than the amount of time I actually blogged), I'm back...for today at least. A couple hours after I was "off" work but still at work, I was chatting with Katrina about how it's okay to complain sometimes and this is what flowed very quickly and freely as I typed to her... *Please forgive the terrible grammar...I swear I learned all the rules in school. I just ignore them when I'm typing to friends.* "i want to go home. but i can't. i have too much to do. i want to run outside (even though i'd complain about not wanting to run when i got home anyways). i want to just have a night to sit and relax rather than worry about my students who are failing. but i don't. i always think about them. i even had a dream about one and what i could do to help him. it's sick. i want a job i can leave at work sometimes. but i signed up for this. and i don't really want to give it up. i want to have my own kids someday. preferably before 35. and rather than raise my own i often counsel parents on theirs. i love what i do but sometimes i just want to deal with my own kids rather than everyone else's. but it's amazing how much i can care for so many kids i've only known for 2.5 months. ahh. ok i'm done." Alright...well there it is. Those were my feelings for today.